How you ever gonna know
What it’s like to live there
How you ever gonna know
What you never knew
How you ever gonna know
If you’re down here doin’
What the good Lord put you here to do
How you ever gonna know
If you could have done it
How you ever gonna know
How it feels to fly
How you ever gonna know
If you never dare to try
Yes, those are Garth Brooks lyrics. But I can’t think of anything else that is so specific to exactly what I’m going through right now. I’ve listened to plenty of songs on The Message XM and nothing comes close to being so specifically right. I’m not saying Garth Brooks replaces my prayers or songs of praise…but it’s just what I needed today.
How WILL I know?
I write this tonight not knowing if my life is about to be turned upside down or not. The last almost two months have been a slow whirlwind of emotions. It has been a marriage builder. It has been a time of reflection. It has been a time of contemplation. It has been a……time. And this week starts a new beginning. I just don’t know how the story is even going to begin.
And oh how fast stories change. I’d forgotten all about this blog until just today. The last time I wrote was two years ago before we even got Tippet. I went back through and read the few posts I had written and, oh, how life has changed!
I read how scared I was of the new beginning we were starting with a puppy and a baby. And, while that story is continuing, we made it through the beginning and I can honestly say we (Matt and I) are better now than we were then.
And I’m sure this next chapter, no matter how it begins, will make us that much stronger. While I can sit and get my stomach in knots thinking of all the “What ifs…”, I know God is bigger than them, even if my head can’t seem to wrap around that thought. Heck, he probably used Garth’s new station (which, by the way, is the most amazing station ever!) and that song to open my eyes. I mean, God’s not limited to ‘Christian’ songs now is he?